Why cant i socialize??!

Why cant i socialize??

i just seem in a world of my own, i never speak unless asked questions, people talk and laugh, i stuggle to laugh and just feel different/left out. i want to be with people, but when I am I wish I was alone. i cannot speak on the phone, not particually because of nerves but i dont know what to say, I have to write it down on paper and practice before i phone.

I feel exactly the same way and its and its just not healthy!!I've broken away from the friends I did have as they had really hurt me and I don't trust people anymore!It's terrible,i'm so withdrawn!you've just lost your confidence and i think for the most part you should see a therapist,and practice socialising,practice,practice,... feels weird at first but you just have to push through,don't think too introspectively and deeply and focus on simplicity!also try and get yourself to think logically,like thinking about a maths problem or english essay and deal with socialising in this very detached and scientific manner,don't allow the emotions and fears to cloud your thoughts.or indecision or hesitency,just look at things like i have to do this,just as you have to do clean your house!just be logical and rational!