I suffer from panic disorder how can i keep from loosing my freinds?!

I suffer from panic disorder how can i keep from loosing my freinds?

I suffer from panic because of all the abuse i put up with from family i am so scared of leaveing my house because of the way i look and my condition i was always made fun of and hit i don't remember my childhood at all . I ahve lost so many people in my life cause of my condition.and other things i am afraid of being away from home i am on meds for my panic disorder but live in constent fear what can i do .... i get pushed to do things all the time and i am scared to do them i have tryed so many things and it don't help. please i need some help some how . i am not in perfect health as it is but i wish i can have my life bk but from what doctors say i have a mental problem and well need i say more.?

I also suffer from panic attacks and extreme anxiety. I can not handle having people standing near me so I cant stand in line at the shops, or enter a small crowded shop. I cant go on public transport and I have a panic attack the second I close my eyes to sleep, EVERY NIGHT!!!!! So I end up staying awake most nights and as I have three children the next morning is sooooo hard!!!
Meds dont work and I also have hardly any friends.
But the thing with Panic Attacks is really its all in your head! YOU CAN CONTROLL THEM.
Yes this is extremly difficult and for some impossible but it can be done. Although I have panic attacks I never let it get out of controll like it used to. I dont need to go into hospital anymore and it never gets to the point where im hyperventilating any more. I cant controll the emotional feelings but I can controll the physical ones, like the electricity that zaps me, the quickend heart beat, the sweating and hyperventilating. It comes down to mind over matter, relaxation and breathing excersises. no one can tell you how to do this, you need to focus and find out what works for you. But the way to stop youself hyperventilating is easy!!! you breath in through your nose VERY SLOWLY and as you breath out through your mouth VERY SLOWLY you say in your mind 'relax'. do this three times and then see if you can return to normal breathing. if not yet do it again and keep doing it untill your calm. NEVER think, oh my god im having a panic attack!!!! NEVER focus on whats happening to your body, NEVER think about how scared you are. Clear your mind and focus on the word RELAX. If you can do this then you are on the road to recovery. If your friends dont understand then their not worth having as friends. Tell them the truth and if they dont get it its their loss. Goodluck.