This isn't much of a question and it's stupid but?!

This isn't much of a question and it's stupid but?

um how do you know if your meds are working? i've been taking lexapro for 17 days and i'm supposed to see my psychiatrist in a few days to see how i'm doing. but i haven't done any therapy and i haven't changed my lifestyle at all :( so how do i know if they're working? i'm so embarrassed. i don't know what i should tell him. i've been feeling suicidal so i guess they aren't working but the first 5 days i felt hyper..

I felt hyper the first few days too. I actually felt like i was tripping but with no visuals. Then i just kind of mellowed out. Which was followed by a zombie-like state. I mean, I was functioning, but i really got zero enjoyment out of life and I felt my like i had zero creative energy. I've been off of it for about 4 months now and still need some sort of anti-depressant/anti-psychotic but I don't think it will be Lexapro. There are hundreds of different "happy-pills" out there and one that may be just right for you. It does take a while for these SSRI's to work so give it a bit and if it doesn't work for you ask your doc about trying something else. Wellbutrin maybe. Hang in there