System has screwed me and still is....?!

System has screwed me and still is....?

Is it any wonder iam selfish,cynical and couldnt careless...Once i was helpfull,idealistic.Creative,S... now....Dont tell me iam depressed,yes feel very angry at situation,it is wrong,i am correct in feeling bad about it...Meanwhile i keep paying and get more cynical...No Change

You have every right to feel your feelings. From what I can get you are not getting the help you feel you need or are not seeing any changes. You probably will not like my answer but I was going through this same problem about seven years ago. I was in a mental health clinic/system here. The way things work here are that they go by your zip code so when I moved even though it was in the same County and the same exact clinic system I was not allowed to be seen at the clinic in my area because as they said "I was not sick enough even though I am on disability and they would not prescribe some of my medications because of the part of town it was in" (ridiculous) regardless that I had been on this medicine for years and it had been proven to be helping. Anger is sadness turned inward and oh did I have anger issues and I felt as if I was getting no where and I was "fighting" the system because I was angry and determined but it did nothing but make things worse because I as one could change nothing and it was only affecting me physically. I tell you this to say that you need to channel that anger into finding a place or someone who will see you that will help you so you can see changes. It CAN happen. I did not have insurance. I kept looking but stopped "fighting" per se. I found help. You do care or you would not stick with it nor would you have ask the question and as I said it is ok to be angry but try to turn that around and make that productive. You can call your States Disability Act office even if you are not on disability and they can get an Advocate to help you. There are many avenues. I hope you will get the help you need and not give up. Being cynical is only slowing your healing process down when ultimately you are trying to get better. I do wish you the best~ If you ever want to talk feel free to click on my pic and email me. Good luck~