....gah...eating disorder?!

....gah...eating disorder?

why is it that all the sudden i feel really good about myself, thinking that i'm a pretty good size.. and then i lose my self confidence, and think that i'm...well..huge.. it's kind of ebarrising to say.

i don't eat very much, and that's just because i'm never hungry.. i go through these stages where i'm reallly thin.. as of the other question i've asked before this.. and
other times i feel really big.
waht could this be???

i just need help finding a way that i can lose weight, and feel good about myself all the time..
i'm 5'4 5'5ish and i'm about 126 lbs( that's what i weighed last time i weighed myself)

please don't get on and say that i don't need to do anything, it's for myself.. don't asnwer if you're just going to tell me that i'm dumb or need to go to the doctor. i really need help, it's kind of a big deal to me.

thanks.

You are not dumb. You have an eating disorder from the sounds of things and possible other things going on. I was in complete denial and was like I don't have an eating disorder and leave me alone I am just never hungry and need to lose weight but then I went into a program and I saw finally that I did truly have an eating disorder....anorexia. For your size you are at a good, healthy weight even if that's not what you want to hear. You really do need to go see a Nutritionist or a Psychologist even though you stated that you do not want to. it will help and they will show and teach you how to eat to where you do not have to gain weight but maintain and just eat healthy. If you would like to talk sometime you can IM me at jsbinal or click on my pic an email me ok. I have been where you are. I do hope you will seek Professional help and wish you the best~