Manic/depressive bi-polar disorder?!

Manic/depressive bi-polar disorder?

This may seem like a very odd question, but Im wondering if perhaps anyone could tell me how I could activate the "manic" phase in my mind. As of right now, Im pretty neutral, or normal.. on the scale between euphoria and depression Im pretty balanced out. I enjoy the manic feeling a lot, I become more creative than usual and I seem to have just a lot more energy. Socially, I stay the same.. my mouth wont shut off, but Im just not as energized to talk to random people or having interesting convo's with people than I would when Im manic. Is there a way to start it, or activate it?

6 days ago
Monster energy drink used to make my brain go on auto fire.

I tried today and that just isnt working.

I feel pretty lame right now, no energy : )

6 days ago
I enjoy the insanity. Life is a little too short to be constantly living in moderation.. thats how I see things.

Honeslty, I'd rather be insane than live a life in slow moderation. Pushing through everday, in the gray area.

Thats just my opinion. Thats how I see life.

I don't think so. That is the wonder of this illness.