Why is it I feel I will never get to the bottom of my pain?!
Question:
Why is it I feel I will never get to the bottom of my pain?
There is a possiblity that I might have been abused sexually as a child and I cant remember my first kiss or the first time I had sex. There are all these memories sitting inisde of me and I just cant turn my head to look. I CANT wait anymore. I want to see so I can move on. I dont want the tormant anymore. What can I do about this?
Answers:
You should really talk to a therapist about this so that you can find out what those memories are and work through them in a safe setting. I went through something similar and when I started therapy it was hard at first but then when I confronted those memories and learned better ways to cope it was so uplifting.
I know the pain is hard and I know you really want some help. Ask your family doctor if they can refer you to a therapist and make sure it's a therapist who has experience in working with people who are survivors of past abuse. There is also a book and workbook called The Courage to Heal, but it's best to use these books while seeing a therapist because some of the reading and exercises can be emotionally difficult to do on your own.
You're very courageous to want to work this out and I hope that things start to get better for you soon. Take care