I had a very strange and frightening period in my life, yet I miss it! Experienc!

I had a very strange and frightening period in my life, yet I miss it! Experience anything similar?

When I was a teenager everyone thought I was on drugs, but I wasn't. No one suspected I was crazy! Well, it started with depression and then it evolved in to something rather strange. I would stay up at night writing poetry and music. I was convinced I was destined to be some sort of famous artistic genius, when in reality my skills are rather numb. When I went to school, I would talk of my genius non-stop. I was certain I was better than everyone else. It felt good (considering the previous depression). I was cutting myself, but during this phase I was convinced that I had to cut myself in order for my genius not to be lost. It was controlled by special spirits that lived in my blood. I stopped eating almost completely because I was absolutely sure I was being poisoned by spirits that wanted to steal my special talents. I was too good for life! Then one day, almost suddenly it went away. It was scary, but I want to feel like that again. It's like life is meaningless without madness.

1 week ago
Anyone know what that was besides abnormal?

I can no longer entertain such thoughts because I'm able to be logical these days and just think I'm a nut instead of a gift!

1 week ago
LOL! I'm not male, I'm female and I am happy with my husband whom I love very much!

Sorry. I can't touch that.