Is there anyone out there who can help me?!

Is there anyone out there who can help me?

I am 15 ½ years old. During 1st - 7th grade I was harassed and bullied. After 7th grade my parents sent me to a nearby school. Because of all that I went trough, it was hard for me to handle my anger. At the age of 10 I started biting myself. On March 25th of 2007, I cut myself. I am not sure why I did, but it was like an impulse. Then, about 3 ½ weeks b4 school ended, I cut myself again. The first time I told my best friend (who is going to be a Senior) b/c I thought she would understand b/c she used to cut. The second time, I did tell her and I knew that she was disappointed in me and she told me that she hates to see me like this and that I need to tell someone soon. This really scared me b/c I did not feel like I could tell my parents. At the beginning of 8th grade, I thought that I might be bisexual, then at the beginning of 8th grade, I thought that I might be bisexual, then at the beginning of high school I realized and accepted the fact that I was. And not to long ago I found

1 week ago
out that my dad really does not like people who are gay.
have also have had sucidale thoughts but am not stupid enough to go though with it. I am not sure that I am going to tell my parents because my mom keeps having these side pains and the doctors do not know what it wrong with her and she might have this test that is 50% successful and 50% chance that she will die. And the doctor told her to keep her stress level down. I have not cut or bite for about 7 weeks. I don’t know what the he!! I should do?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Do not tell me that I need to see a doctor, to many people have told me that already and I do not need anyone else telling me that. am talking to my friends and it seems to help. But I feel like I am loosing my faith. have started writeing in a journal and writeing poetry, that seems to help alot.

I am a christain, but it feels like God is never there for me.

1 week ago
I have not cut or bitten myself for about 2 months

WOW. I seriously think you should seek some help from an adult you can trust. You can even tell your school counselor and she can help you get the help you need. I understand how you fell as far as trying to please your parents but your parents are there to help you. If you are harming yourself you need to seek some professional help and there is no way around that. Being bisexual doesn't mean anything either. Your dad may not care for "gay" people but you are his daughter and I promise he will understand. Talk to your parents because someone needs to know. One day you might really do more harm than you thought and your parents may have the vital information that may save your life. That is only if you tell them what's going on with you. Your parents are your friend and they want the best for you no matter what. Tell them and take everything one day at a time. 7 weeks is along time to go without cutting and biting,(Congrats keep it up) but believe me your parents and others who care want to see you living well and healthy emotionally and physically 7 decades down the line. Do the right thing, more people care than you think, you just have to let them know what is going on.