I am depresed and cant change the way i feel?!

I am depresed and cant change the way i feel?

I am alone in life, i have to friends. I sit on my PC everyday with nothing to do and i hate it, it makes me feel so stuck, like i cant do anything no change. i cant go out because there is no one to see. I dont want to tell my parents how i feel. there not the type who talks about emotions and feeling. I feel like i need to get counceling but i cant, i am 15 i am to imbarised to ask my parents for it. i just want to die. o mater what i do to try and change how i feel it makes it worse. i decided to watch some adam sandler comedy stuff but now i am envious of him because he has it all. and even in his film the weading singer i was laughing but was left feeling upset that i will never get a good life like he has. i just want out.

1 week ago
I cant tell my parents, i just cant for all this time i ahve bee acting happy around them. plus it would be to imbarising

Sounds like you should probably see a doctor and possibly get medication.
I wish I could teach more people this.... COMMUNICATION is the key to solving A LOT of problems. You really need to talk to you parents too... as hard as this seems, you probably will be pleasantly surprised by their reaction. They do love you! They do want the best for you... Another thought... call your school. Usually the guidance department works in the summer, or at least a secretary does and can get you in touch with someone you can talk to. Get out there, make some friends! It's easier than you think.
Good Luck!!