Confused help please !?!

Confused help please !?

I've been self harming for over a year but now my parents know and I'm seeing a psychologist. I don't really like/trust her but I'm willing to go cause I know she'll help and that I should trust her. But I still cut sometimes, I know it's wrong but I don't know if I want to stop. Sometimes I feel like me, the real me that's a loud happy person but my past is holding on to me. I'm obsessed with my friend who saved my life but I wish I could let go cause I might never see her again and I need to cope with my life myself. I can't get dark thoughts out my head and it's really driving me crazy. I want to shout and scream cause my psychologist thinks I'm doing great ! When I don't cut, I don't eat. I guess I want to know if everything will be alright ? I want to here something positive in this crazy messed up world !

you are right, this is a crazy messed up world. you should stop hurting yourself. but first of all just like when someone tries to quit smoking., it's not going to fully work unless you do it for YOURSELF. and not someone else. if you don't trust your therapist then ask to switch to someone you do trust. not all therapists are trust worthy. you need someone you can totally confide in. even someone who is just willing to listen. i'm sure your parents wouldn't mind letting you switch your counsler if you just talk to them and explain why you want to. good luck and if you need anything feel free to email me.