What the hell is wrong with me?!?!


Question:

What the hell is wrong with me?!?

ok this is hard to explain. i went on a suicide prevention/help site that someone gave me as an answer to one of my questions. it said about no-suicide contracts - where the suicidal person signs a contract that says they will not die by suicide, and it has emergency numbers on it. they sign it and so does their family/doctor or whoever. when reading i was thinking i wouldn't sign that, as in some ways i want help, but in other ways i don't - i some ways i want to die by suicide, i feel that i am meant to die by suicide and nothing can change that. i also often think that i want to stay depressed, without help, until i kill myself. i feel that that is my destiny. that is how i must end. i can't really explain it. I'm so confused. What the hell is up with me?

Additional Details

1 week ago
Jacko - ok this is really stupid but how the hell do you go onto the different pages?!


Answers:

I completely understand where you are coming from...
When you spend so much time thinking about suicide it almost seems impossible that you're going live...
I wouldnt sign that thing either...
Suicide to me is something that will always be there to lean on when times get tough and to know that i couldnt do it would make it all the more attractive!...
Many people think of suicide as a way out...others, like you say feels its their destiny to die...No-one knows whether this is true or not...No-one would like to say to someone yeah its your destiny to die through suicide but if you feel that way then surely if thats what u believe then thats the way it will be...
This isnt me telling you to commit suicide by the way...
I suggest you talk to your GP...I know you've probably heard it all before but maybe in a few weeks/months/years time you may feel different and would be one of those people that would sign their name...
I often think that i want to stay depressed and want to kill myself, why not its much easier than facing the pressures of life...But its not the only way to do so...
There are many different types of help out there, Even self help...no drs involved or nothing...its just takes determintation...
Remember there are many many people out that that would lose such a big part of themselves if you died...
Maybe your thinking theres not...Yeah thats my response to that too...
But believe me there!...
Dont suffer in silence...There is so much help out there...
Ok so maybe in a few yrs time(remember it wont happen over night) you feel the same as you do now but atleast you wont have lost anything...From seeking help you are taking a step to making things better...
I hope you take some of this on board...if not anything else just remember you are meant to be here...if you werent you wouldnt be...
Take things slowly...one step at a time...
Take care and stay strong...
Xox...
P.s you can email me if you need to chat...




The consumer health information on answer-health.com is for informational purposes only and is not a substitute for medical advice or treatment for any medical conditions.
The answer content post by the user, if contains the copyright content please contact us, we will immediately remove it.
Copyright © 2007-2011 answer-health.com -   Terms of Use -   Contact us

Health Categories