Am i the only one who feels this way?!

Am i the only one who feels this way?

i dont know why.. i've always been so fascinated by peoples reactions.i like to be totally different in my mind than my reactions.for example.. if im hiding smoking and i hear my mom coming i wouldnt put it out.. i would drop it right there so that she could see it.. just so she would think that im dumb enough not to hide it, she would find out that i was smoking and she would think that i just dropped it, when in reality, i just wanted to see her reaction to it. I like to let people believe certain things, good or bad. Just so that inside i know they are all wrong. I just crave the faces people make when they are so sure of themselves. Secretly they are soooo wrong and i am mocking them on the inside.

Does anyone do this, or feel such pleasure from people being wrong and not knowing?

is this a weird thing?

It's because these things are the only things you have total control over. You are creating an outcome where you can't be hurt by a reaction you weren't expecting. So you do things you know will bring about a bad reaction, because that is what you are most familiar with.

I know because I used to do that. Home life wasn't very good for me, one day if I did something, all was fine, the next day, if I did the same I would be punished. Does this sound familiar? I'm just guessing, but, that's how it was for me.