Is there anybody out there that can help me?!

Is there anybody out there that can help me?

I am 15 ½ years old. During 1st - 7th grade I was harassed and bullied. After 7th grade my parents sent me to a nearby school. Because of all that I went trough, it was hard for me to handle my anger. At the age of 10 I started biting myself. On March 25th of 2007, I cut myself. I am not sure why I did, but it was like an impulse. Then, about 3 ½ weeks b4 school ended, I cut myself again. The first time I told my best friend (who is going to be a Senior) b/c I thought she would understand b/c she used to cut. The second time, I did tell her and I knew that she was disappointed in me and she told me that she hates to see me like this and that I need to tell someone soon. This really scared me b/c I did not feel like I could tell my parents. At the beginning of 8th grade, I thought that I might be bisexual, then at the beginning of 8th grade, I thought that I might be bisexual, then at the beginning of high school I realized and accepted the fact that I was. And not to long ago I found

1 week ago
out that my dad really does not like people who are gay.
have also have had sucidale thoughts but am not stupid enough to go though with it. I am not sure that I am going to tell my parents because my mom keeps having these side pains and the doctors do not know what it wrong with her and she might have this test that is 50% successful and 50% chance that she will die. And the doctor told her to keep her stress level down. I have not cut or bite for about 7 weeks. I don’t know what the he!! I should do?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Do not tell me that I need to see a doctor, to many people have told me that already and I do not need anyone else telling me that. am talking to my friends and it seems to help. But I feel like I am loosing my faith. have started writeing in a journal and writeing poetry, that seems to help alot.

I am a christain, but it feels like God is never there for me.

1 week ago
emmygirl1316-

It would be helpfull if I had someone else to talk to, seeing as I can not get a hold of my close friend that can realt to what I am going through than most of my friends. My email is: minihorses102691@yahoo.com

It's not uncommon to have the sort of issues that you are having in your age range. You are approaching adulthood and that is scary. You are also apparently burdened with the stress of trying to maintain a brave front for the sake of your family. There may also be a feeling that you are being over looked with so many other things going on with other members of your family and that may be true. It would be helpful for you to be in counseling. Also try not to read too much in your friends reactions to what you have told her. She is probably very concerned for you and just doesn't know how to help. Speak with someone you trust, (preferably an adult) about counseling. I believe that you could probably do this without alarming anyone since this would be very helpful for you. Don't let your circumstances overwhelm you. You need to get some guidance and help. I hope that you do and soon. There's nothing wrong with needing help, we all do at some point in our lives, and sometimes the times we need help are numerous. I wish you luck.