Depression and Lonliness?!

Depression and Lonliness?

OK, i don't know where to start but i need to try and explain this so that i don't have to feel so alone anymore.

I am 20. I have only been clinically depressed for about 9 months now but it just seems to so persistent and i don't know what to do anymore. I have tried speaking to doctors and they really couldn't care less, you speak to them for 2 minutes and they prescribe you something, who knows what, i have to do my own research for what the drugs actually do and how they work.

I tried them for a few months as recommended and increased the drug and dosage but i just didn't feel any different at all but i had all the side effects and decided to stop.

I have also tried therapy and it was good at first and helped me be more confident but i still can't tell anyone about my problem although i don't have anyone to tell it to. I have no close friends or family as they were the ones that caused me so much pain in the first place and now that i have distanced myself, i feel so alone

1 week ago
I have tried joining clubs to meet people and it has helped a bit but there are only very few things that I am interested in and the meetings aren’t very often so I spend so much time on my own and all these clubs are so far away from where I live so its difficult to build a bond with people and I’m not very good at talking to people in the first place, and I can’t move because I don’t have enough money and its going to be at least a year before I can live where I need to and I don’t know if I can survive that long on my own.

I really just need some people to talk to, I have tried sites as well but people send messages so infrequently that you can’t get to be ‘friends’ and I just don’t know what to do anymore, I have run out of ideas and don’t know who to speak to?

I know where you are coming from there is no easy answer.But by been on here it will help you to feel you have friends and be able to communcate with people and hopefully build up your trust of people. You need more than medication as this cant give you a social life it really is up to you when you feel ready to leave your comfort zone. Only you know when you are ready to do this. :)