I think i'm slowly killing myself, how do i stop?!

I think i'm slowly killing myself, how do i stop?

it started about six years ago when i was in high school, i would pull out my eyebrows. i used to have nice thick eyebrows now they are patchy and thin and i can't stop.

i am now in college, and i have a great boyfriend and other friends. but i feel the need to hang out with sketchy guys i met at my job. one of them is a ex-heroin addict who has been in jail. he is at high risk for hep c and hiv. i had sex with him anyway.

i drink until i hysterically cry, fight, or become ill.

i can't stop myself from engaging in this self destructive behavior.

what should i do?

well you certainly have a self destructive streak in you, and if you keep it up, you will destroy not only your self, but those who care about you as well. What you describe is irresponisible and immature behavior, and I suspect you were likely a very spoiled little girl who got most of what she wanted without much in the way of discipline and correction. You must learn discipline, you must learn consequences of actions before it's too late. Were I you? I would go into the military, preferably the marines, and have them make an adult of you, you obviously will not succeed on your own. This isnt' mental illness, this is very simply your refusal to grow up.