I feel really guilty is it my fault?!

I feel really guilty is it my fault?

ok so this kid invited me over to watch a movie yeah thats fine and we started making out who cares and like we did some other stuff (( i did it hesitantly )) and he like wanted me to give him head and i waslike i dont know i dont know i dont really want too and he like kind of pushed my head down so i would doo it and like held it there andi feel guilty because it was my fault!!

No. It wasn't your fault. He shouldn't have forced you if you said 'No" by holding your head down.

Next time sweetie, make sure you say "No" and get your point across and be careful about going to someones house alone. Next time it could be worse for you.