My whole life is food, diet, and weight?!

My whole life is food, diet, and weight?

My life is what I've eaten and what I'll eat next, how many calories and in this or that, and how much nutrition is in this or that. I've tried to just stop counting calories, but I find myself unable to stop. I don't restrict to any extreme, but my obsession with health is very odd. Sometimes I eat very unhealthy things despite knowing how bad I'll feel later, and sometimes I eat ketchup or mustard straight from the jar. I'm constantly obsessed with food and diet, which often leads to me eating more. I'm not overweight, but my biggest fear is that someday I will be. I don't know what to do, and I want to have a normal life where I never think about food. I even think about it all day at work, constantly. I am not fat and I am aware that I am not fat, but I fear that I will become fat. I used to be anorexic (I have received much psychological evaluation and much therapy during that time) and now I overeat and am obsessed with food and feat that weight gain is coming my way.

I think you need to see your therapist again. And let him or her know what's going on.