I'm 19. For the past few months I've been feeling depressed, Suicidal and I cut !

I'm 19. For the past few months I've been feeling depressed, Suicidal and I cut myself from time to time.

I saw my dog get hit by a car on thanksgiving and I really became depressed after that. I'm not sure if grieving is ok, or how long it should go on for, does anyone know? I'm suppose to see a psychologist. I've called a few places, but never went. I'm scared about going to a psychologist I need help, but I'd feel like a baby asking for it. Only one of my cousin know I'm depressed, suicidal and cut myself. He's the only one I let see the real me. Everyone else in my family thinks I have an aditiude problem.I don't like they think that way. A bunch of my friends know how I've been feeling, but it doesn't seem to be doing much good, I never talk to them. Please don't get me wrong I know there's so many other people in the world who are worse off then me. So maybe I shouldn't be complaining.I never realized how much depressed sucks! I don't know what to do. If anyone has some handy advice could you please help me. No mean answers, please! Thank you for your answers!!!

Honey, grieving is not only OK, it's normal and healthy. I'm wondering if maybe part of the reason for your depression is that you're not allowing yourself to go through the grieving process. Cutting yourself is a means of lessening the emotional pain by countering it with physical pain - among other things.

If you need help, there's NOTHING babyish about asking for it. Actually, recognizing the need for help and stepping up to seek it out is a very brave and adult thing to do.

Therapists are not headshrinkers - they are there to help you find peace with yourself.

It's a shame that people still don't recognize pain unless it leaves something bleeding, broken or burned.

I have a lot more to say but don't want to ramble. If you want to talk about it, feel free to email me.