People expect more of me than what I can give. Am I as lazy and slack as people !

People expect more of me than what I can give. Am I as lazy and slack as people say?

I used to be ambitious, I still am to a degree. That was before I developed chronic schizophrenia. Since recovered and stabilised (yes it is possible) I have taken control of my life and I am that good that nobody even suspects a thing. Obtained a professional qualification, and people assume I should be working in that field. The truth is I have learnt my limitations and learnt that if I give myself too much pressure and stress I will make myself ill, which is how it developed in the first place. Everybody says I am lazy and a bludger to society. I do the work I feel I can do when it is available but everybody says I can do better. I go to job interviews and they expect me to be more experienced at them and more relaxed about it. I try the best I can and feel I am getting better but I do not conform to others expectations. They think I will be too much work to train as I get agitated and stressed but am pretty independent and work hard at what I can do. Am I lazy?

You have been through a lot, and you have to go at the pace that suits you. Try not to let other people rule your life. everybody is different.