What is this mental disorder? i never think i desearve happiness : (?!
Question:
What is this mental disorder? i never think i desearve happiness : (?
like for example i was hooking up with a guy and all i thought about the entire time was "hes way too hot for me, hell never call me, ect". i cant enjoy anything anymore because i feel so guilty about it. when things go wrong i cry, but when things well i wont even allow myself to revel in the happiness. is this some sort of disorder? ive been commiting social suicide left and right because i dont believe any of my friends will last anyways. i just tell them brutally honest rude things to thier faces. ive started to drink every single time i go out and i hook up with guys who i know are assholes.
can anyone put a name to this? am i depressed? do i have a personality disorder?
Answers:
You're depressed and have very low self-esteem. You need to get counseling/therapy. Or you'll never start feeling better. Don't sit there and say you can't see a therapist. If you do that, then you LIKE being miserable.
And until you get treated for your depression and self- esteem, STOP dating. Depression and low self-esteem doesn't just hurt you---it hurts everyone around you.