Is there anybody out there that can help me?!

Is there anybody out there that can help me?

I am 15 ½ years old. During 1st - 7th grade I was harassed and bullied. After 7th grade my parents sent me to a nearby school. Because of all that I went trough, it was hard for me to handle my anger. At the age of 10 I started biting myself. On March 25th of 2007, I cut myself. I am not sure why I did, but it was like an impulse. Then, about 3 ½ weeks b4 school ended, I cut myself again. The first time I told my best friend (who is going to be a Senior) b/c I thought she would understand b/c she used to cut. The second time, I did tell her and I knew that she was disappointed in me and she told me that she hates to see me like this and that I need to tell someone soon. This really scared me b/c I did not feel like I could tell my parents. At the beginning of 8th grade, I thought that I might be bisexual, then at the beginning of high school I realized and accepted the fact that I was. And not to long ago I found out that my dad really does not like people who are gay.

2 weeks ago
I have also have had sucidale thoughts but am not stupid enough to go though with it. I am not sure that I am going to tell my parents because my mom keeps having these side pains and the doctors do not know what it wrong with her and she might have this test that is 50% successful and 50% chance that she will die. And the doctor told her to keep her stress level down. I have not cut or bite for about 7 weeks. I don’t know what the he!! I should do?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Do not tell me that I need to see a doctor, to many people have told me that already and I do not need anyone else telling me that.

2 weeks ago
I am talking to my friends and it seems to help. But I feel like I am loosing my faith.

2 weeks ago
I have started writeing in a journal and writeing poetry, that seems to help alot.

2 weeks ago
I am a christain, but it feels like God is never there for me.

Your situation is a hard one. I myself am not a cutter and I am not bisexual but I am not here to judge you. All I can say is that if you have managed to not cut your self for that long than well done. Keep up the good work. When you feel the urge to do so, try to find something else to do, something productive maybe (I know better said than done). Even if you are having suicidal thoughts, you may need to take yourself out of the situation. Go for a long walk, talk to someone close to you about anything else other than what has made you so upset. I really hope that this helps, as I am not trying to be a smart ***.