Why am I so depressed and why does my self-esteem suck?!
Question:
Why am I so depressed and why does my self-esteem suck?
Lately I've been so depressed and I will admit to thinking about suicide quite often. It just seems like there isn't anything or anyone to live for. Everything I do is just boring to me. Tonight I was with family and they were all lighting off fireworks and I just sat there the whole time and it wasn't fun at all. I used to love doing that. It seems like people would be better off if I was out of their way. I don't know if anyone would really even miss me. My self-esteem is like negative 5 million. I can't do anything infront of people. Plus I have social anxiety disorder so I can't do normal things that people do like shopping, or really going much of anywhere. Nobody understands me and I feel like I'm all alone. You think out of all the people in the world there would be at least one person that understands me. I wait and wait for things to get better but they never do. I wonder if my entire life will be like this. I just want to be happy and confident, is that too much to ask? HELP!
Answers:
You really need help. Go to a counsellor so that you will
have somebody to talk to without anybody knowing what
you feel. After relating to her all your problems, for sure
she can come up with somethings you can do to control
or lessen your depression. You did right in writing and
asking help from other people like me for help. However,
I am not in a position to offer you options, so take my advice
and see a professional who can really help you. Go now.