Cant sleep want to die not interested in anything?!

Cant sleep want to die not interested in anything?

I have had awhile where I just want to die. I know I need help and everything but Im affraid to get it because I dont want to get committed in the county that Im in. I dont know what to do about this. My parents dont know that I want to do this and think that Im totally healthy. I havent been able to sleep very much at all. I mean in the past couple of weeks I have gotten an average of 2 hours per night. The one thing I have lived for in the past doesnt matter any more and I dont feel interested in anything. Please give me advice on how to change without getting to be inpatient any where. I also have a bottle of pills that I cant get rid of because sometimes I need them that are looking pretty tempting right now.

2 weeks ago
You know I really dont want to go to a different country but instead if I could go to a different county somehow I dont know how though because I have to live here for awhile longer.

Right now, you need two things and I speak from experience. First of all, get on a good antidepressant. A good antidepressant will correct any chemical changes that are going on to aggravate (not necessarily cause) your depression. The second thing you need to do is see a therapist (psychologist) to learn how to change the way you feel by changing the way you think. I've been where you are before. At one point, I was living in North Carolina, USA and I spent a good (?) month in a loft in the dark barely eating and only leaving my space to go to the bathroom and maybe eat a little something. So I know where you're coming from. I wish you the best and please tell your parents what you're going through. I know that I would do anything to help a son or a daughter and I know your parents have to feel the same way.

Write me if I can be of any help because I've been there before and now I've recovered from my depression one day at a time.