I really dont want to live around my mom & family?!

I really dont want to live around my mom & family?

and i feel so BAD about that. but why do i feel so bad??? here's more info: i work very hard for what i have. when i fall i get up & keep going. when things go bad i may get depressed but i keep going. i want to live a certain way & i work my behind off to have it. i'm the ONLY ONE in my family who does that. everybody else is either doing nothing or they have regular jobs & not trying to do more. in a few yrs i know i'm going to live how i want because i work really hard for it. i dont want to have my family with me. i dont know if i want my Mom around either because with HER comes everybody else. and i'm sorry to say this but i'm sick of my Mom & her ways & habits. i've had alot of experiences with her growing up that caused me to be an adult with "negative issues" & i'm still fighting those issues to be a better person, while she's still the same way. i get agitated being around them & i want to live my life on my own & be my own person.

Am I wrong for that? Am I rejecting them?

2 weeks ago
I'm in my mid-40's

2 weeks ago
To poster Dee:

I think you have me mixed up with somebody else. I am not 18, I am in my mid-40's. I also did not make a post about being in love with a 48 yr old man.

From someone who has also been there:

No you are not bad for needing your own space, nor are you rejecting them. It is time for you to take care of yourself.

A therapist may help you get through you doubts about this; mine did.