Rub out these irrational ideas?!

Rub out these irrational ideas?

i suffer from slight paranoia and delusion (as a result of my mood disorder) and i've got it bad today!
I went to the pub and played the guitar (cos thats what i love to do!) the people inside didn't know me but the liked my playing and gave me a free pint. then i got the HORRIBLE and disturbing thoughts...
... what if the person had AIDS and put the infection in the pint. bizzar?! i've been given well good advice to counter this and i'm beginin t feel way better any more help

ps thanks alot

Hi Rambo:

First let me say I have similiar issues with things like that. I always try to see them get the glass, pour the drink and give it to me.I pretty much go nuts when someone drinks from my drink, even if it one of my children. Sounds gross but I am afraid of "backwash" in my drink. after that, I will not drink it, or if it is left alone for a bit and I go back to it say at a party, the beach even in the yard...I think of different things and I cant drink it.

So you are not alone in this area. I use to try and force myself to drink it anyway, but that just caused even more stress so now I usually just go get another one.

In the situation that you had today playing the guitar, I think that no matter how much it kills me inside, you accept the drink, say thanks, and drink it. Even though that you had that thought, it was not true. You don't want to insult someone who appreciates your music unless they give you cause for suspicion, which he had not.

What I also do in similiar situations such as you had today is I continiously talk to myself in my head telling me that the thought was totaly out of the norm, do surrender to the thought, fight it as you do everything else and so on. Eventually, I do feel better, almost convinced even.

Then you can be proud of yourself when you get home and are thinking of the days events, you can smile and say something like "Hey, I fought that thought and I won!" and you will feel proud and happy. When the next thought comes along what ever it is then do the same thing, and keep doing it every time. You will see a difference, I know I do.

Have you had the p surgery or did u decide against it?

I hope otherwise than the drink today you are doing well.

Be safe and be well.