I lost my mom through death. I'm having a hard time dealing with it. What is the!

I lost my mom through death. I'm having a hard time dealing with it. What is the best way to cope?

My mom died Aug 30,2006. I have a very hard time to deal with it. I'm taking Xanax for my Post Tramatic Stress Disorder. I came back from deployment. I don't what is worse seeing the person next to you die or see your dead mother lying a hospital bed. My husband David wants to help me, but I feel very lonley at times. The Navy provided help I need, but I feel sad all the time. I remember to many things from seeing her lying on that bed dead. I've lost 35lbs and continue to lose weight without trying to. Any help would be great.

i am sorry for your loss..i know what it is like to lose a parent,i lost my dad 17 months ago and i am still having a hard time with it. at first i had a hard time to talk about it. every time i tried to talk to someone i would cry more than i talked.the past few months have been better thanks to the love from my family and friends and my doctor.all you can do is take it one day at a time.keep God close to your heart and pray.
thank you for fighting for our country and our freedom
may God bless you and your family.