I want to commit suicide.?!

I want to commit suicide.?

I want to commit suicide. I have depression and am currently searching for the right medication. I have been off prozac for a week and was supposed to start paxil five days ago. But nothing works out anyway. So I want to die. But I also want to be dissuaded. And **** all of you who say you're ridiculous. Because honestly, I just want to be dissuaded at this point. I have the ambien in my bathroom. That is how I will do it. What should I do?

Look, contact a crisis intervention center today. If not for yourself, think of the pain you will leave the people who care for you if you take your life.
I'm not just talking. I've been fighting depression since my teens & I'm over 40 now. I've attempted more than once. I thank God today that I didn't succeed. Just wait it out. There will be better days.
One other thing...go and flush the Ambien now. Take away any temptation you may have.