Help me please!im getting depressed and upset!?!

Help me please!im getting depressed and upset!?

i have social anxiety, and i have huge dreams that seems impossible.
i want to be an actress/model, but i am too shy, and probably when im on stage, i shake, and look like im going to break or puke. why do many people stare at me though? everytime i panic, they just seem to get amazed, and their eyes get bigger.
panic attacks make me shake, sweat, and get nervous. it sucks because im talented. i play the guitar,i can sing, and most of all i can act! my drama teacher hates me to death probably cause of my shyness. i have no idea, but in my school its a living h*ll and teachers treat me wrong cause i have social anxiety (they dont know i have it, but have witnessed my behavior) and it sucks because i come home crying everyday. i cant go out in public, and i hate people because i always feel like they are watching/judging me. what can i do to change this? i want to be an actress or model or singer, but how can i stop thinking what people are thinking of me. i always feel like im judged

There is effective treatment out there for social phobia. You need to find a local Cognitive Behavioral Therapist - this is the primary treatment for this disorder. Also, it has been empirically shown to be very effective. If you get out there and find treatment, it works!! It takes a solid commitment (which you seem to have, because this is effecting you so much).

Remember, when it comes to mental health, find a professional that you can work with. If the first one doesn't fit, try again.

Medication is not a first treatment for social phobia - it won't take away the anxiety associated with certain cues (social situations, public, etc). That comes with therapy.

You can search for local counselors/psychologists in your yellow pages or online.