What do you do when you feel like there your life has no purpose?!

What do you do when you feel like there your life has no purpose?

What do you do when you feel like there your life has no purpose?

I seriously don't know what to do with myself anymore. It gets worst everyday. I'm so tired of my life. I'm tired of crying every night. I've been doing it for too long. I feel like I'm not worth anything at all. I'm not close with my family. they are like strangers to me. I don't feel comfortable getting close with others because I don't trust them. I always feel so alone and I have a hard time interacting with others. I'm not even like a normal quiet person because at least they have personality when they do talk but me on the other hand I'm just plain weird. I don't fit in anymore and for those who seem to like me I cannot understand why. I feel so unworthy in the eyes of others. I've tried counseling and it doesn't work. I've tried talking with others but it just gets worst everyday. Some days I'm able to go through it and other days I just go down the drain. I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like they only way that the pain would end is if I kill myself.
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and I want to do it so badly. i have a hard time connecting with others and I just feel like an outcast in the world. I'm about to be a junior in college and I just feel so helpless and believe me I am trying everyday. The only reason why I keep writing how I feel online is because it actually helps me to stay alive and to not actually give in in killing myself because I just want to end this pain. I hate myself so bad. I don't know why I am the way I am. I'm so stupid and I have to pretend that everything is ok so I can appear normal. I'm just fed up

If your life has no purpose the only thing left to do is make a purpose. You have tried counseling and it didn't work? Bad counselor! You are a Sophomore going on to your junior year in college, great! You have ability, you just have to find a purpose for using it! You also have depression which can be a disability. I want to recommend a couple books by and about a person who had a grave disability and overcame it. She was blind and deaf from birth and became an author.

This woman was Helen Keller born in 1886 and died in 1968 as a famous author. Just type "Helen Keller" into Yahoo! search and in the links that come up read a summary of her life in Wikipedia. Her Biography and Autobiography can be obtained through Amazon.com. She had will power!

I also want to recommend another book, an old one. It is:

Abraham A. Low, MD;"Mental health through will training." Willett Publishing Co,, Glencoe IL, 60022, 1997.

This book has been in continuous publication since 1950 and is the manual for the Recovery Inc. support group which was in existence in 1997 and may still be functioning. It is a non profit, non religious, support and therapy group. The book may still be obtained through Amazon.com.

If you have the will to kill yourself you have enough will to do something more rational!

Good luck, good health, peace and Love!