To all who previously answered my question?!

To all who previously answered my question?

thank you.
it helps out a lot to know i am not paranoid
i am now 21, but this has been a part of myt life since i was 7.
both my parents wanted to get divored, but didnt want me to be another problem divorce child.
i was just concerned because i feel so guilty, as if my birth screwed up their lives, and i remember trying to kill myself then. they found out what i was doing, and asked why but i couldnt bring myself to say i was only trying to help by suicide.
i was just concnerned about the money part. i feel so dirty now, like i am worth nothing and deserve nothing.
i also break down and cry when i see people spending money, i am just afraid i am slowly goign crazy i suppose, and i get terrible mood swings from happy to needing to cry to release pain

Are you seeing a therapist, do you have a support group, church group or good friends who stand by you?

You need to start with your doctor, he can make referrals to competent mental health care. You should also start creating a support network, join things, churches, groups, society's anything that interests you.

Get out and get fresh air every day, walk, bike or swim laps, to get your brain chemicals working for you.