Is this paranoia?!

Is this paranoia?

im 30 years old, have had a very traumatic life and have been treated badly and victimized by alot of people. i now have borderline personality disorder, anger/rage problems, ptsd, high anxiety and panic, social phobia, bad mood swings, very low self esteem..im presentley in a que for therapy.
however...
for along time now ive had the feeling people are talking about me, treating me different, socially ostracizing me, preventing me from having a life and achieving things, preventing me from meeting a loving partner i choose, the girl i want, preventing me from getting and achieving employment, preventing me from emigrating from the uk, which is what id seriously like to do, to canada.......all these desires i would like ive never fullfilled in my life, ive never had a girlfriend or made any friends, because of what ive been through & disorder....and worst of all i think people high up, in society, organised gangs, the media, the government are causing me to be ostracized and are

2 weeks ago
preventing me from achieving my dreams and ambitions in life...like moving to austrailia or canada and are causing people to dislike me, demonize me and keep away from me...
thinking about this makes me feel incredabally angry. however my psychiatrist when i asked him about this, told me it wasnt paranoia, but more a deep distrust of people because of what ive been through in life...but im worried because i do feel somethings happening where im being treated different and possibally ostracized

wow

you sound like you have been through a lot. I have some of the same thoughts;

perhaps talk to a good friend or see a doctor about a prescription.

I'm always here to talk to also