I feel soo depressed and need help but...?!

I feel soo depressed and need help but...?

okay, ive been feeling really Depressed for about a year now and even somtimes think about suicide but never tried...and ive only been to a therapist once. It really helped but my mom says. "i dont want to sit there for a whole hour just so you can get help" I couldnt believe she would say that. she doesnt understand how hard it is to be depressed. "You need to get over youself liz" thats all she will say. i need HELP! im crying out for help and she wont give it to me. Im try to snap out fo it but i cant! i just cant! my life is at a 2 and if he gets at a 1 im gone. She apparently doesnt care. God, i need help. i dont know what to do. everything i thought ever worked never did. so basically i cant ask my mom anything, she wont help me. Maybe if i actually try to hrt myself she will be the one to snap out of it and realize i do need help. i cry myself to sleep every night. all i need is help! advice?

2 weeks ago
i tell my mom i think of suicide and she goes "shut up liz, that really makes me mad. Your thinking of yourself. Selfish thing to do" so no matter what she always has a thing to avoid getting me help.

2 weeks ago
i have no aunts, no uncles, no ETC. they all live to far away and if i got my other family involve that would really piss my mom off for making 'her daughter look like a horrible person' as what she says. Im not a horrible persom am i? i just need help! i can help it on what i think and i have no idea why i feel this way. im only 14 so none of my friend drive and i dont so i ahve no way of getting to a therapist

All the advice you have received is really good. Try a friends parent for help with rides if you need one. Depression is no joke. Like someone else said, don't hurt yourself to get your mothers attention that will make things even worse for you in your mind set.
I also have another suggestion. Try watching your diet. This could add to depression. Watch your sugar intake with sugars and carbohydrates. I have found that these effect my mind set.

Good Luck and God bless.