Can you help me decide what I should do with my life?!

Can you help me decide what I should do with my life?

I graduated from college, but I didn't get to make the GPA high enough to go to graduate school. I'm mentally disabled & my disability affects my functioning in school. It seems like I'll never pass. I feel like a failure. I'm back in college taking undergraduate classes, & it's not working out for me. & I was told that by being in the grad prep program for this school & making straight A's with a perfect GRE score still won't guarantee me to get into grad school. I suck at writing papers, & the professor always says that I don't follow directions, which is part of my disability. I have comprehension problems. & I want to work. Also for student loans, I was told I can get them discharged, since I'm disabled. Should I continue with school, wasting the government's money, KNOWING I'm not gonna pass these courses or should I quit & give up? It's so stressful that it's driving me to a panic attack. & I can't work because they'll cut off my SSI & Social Security benefits.

2 weeks ago
I feel like I'm just wasting my time & energy.

Wow, that is a hard one.

Let me ask you something? If the stress was GONE, would you enjoy school? If the answer is yes, then see about cutting down on your class load and continue with school. Since you are disabled, they MUST accomodate your disability. Can you get a tudor that could help you get better at writing papers? You could probably get that paid for. Also you could continue in the undergrad program and get a different degree if that is something you are interested in.

If you are really set on grad school, keep at it. You will get in eventually.

DO NOT do anything that causes your panic level to raise that high.