Woul di be making a big mistake?!

Woul di be making a big mistake?

I hate who i have become, returned from overseas and since been a horirble person who never laughs or talks or relaxes, i cannot beleive it is me and just want ot be the girl i was, i have booked a flight to manchester as i want to use up my uk visa but am scared that i will get over there, be totally alone and not be able to go on as i wont want to come home either, or maybe it will make me snap out of it and get myself bette,r i am seeing a counsellor and tkaing meds but nothing has helped me as i have completely stuffed everything up and want ot be the girl i used to be! Would leaving it all be a huge mistake or maybe it will make me happy? the problem is i cannot see anything i do as making me happy now as i have sabotaged everything

You can't run away from yourself or your problems, They go along with you. You say you want to be the "girl I used to be" so you have a goal and need a means to get to it. If you are going to a counselor and taking meds realize the meds are not a "magic bullet" and they take time to get the full effect. Counseling takes time too as the counselor needs to get to know you and your problems. Be patient!

I can't help much more because I don't know you or your situation and problems, besides I am not a counselor. I just have been depressed and suffered anxiety before and recovered. It took time.

Remember, every cloud has a silver lining, good luck, good health, peace and love!