I know how pathetic i am but cannot change any of it as it has all happened now!!

I know how pathetic i am but cannot change any of it as it has all happened now!?

I have changed from a strong independent, happy, fun loving girl to a girl that can barely even string a sentence together, all in the space of 6 months and i 'm so annoyed at myself, its just ridiculous and i hate myself for it! I was always such a wicked person and now i 'm quiet unconfident and strange and i'm always going to feel like i stuffed up my life, there is nothing i want to do now, although i used to have such a zest for life.....however i dont actually have any huge dramas in my life this is the annoying part and this is why i am so pathetic! has htis happened ot you? will i be unhappy for ever?

No you are so not pathetic. It sounds so much like depression. I am suffering from the same thing. I was so confident. ICU nurse ready to take on anything. I did have a traumatic experience but that does not have to be the case. I got to where I had no desire to leave the house. I did not spend time with my husband I was just existing. I promise things can get better. It is not easy but the first thing to do is tell someone and seek help. Even a regular family doctor can start treatment for this. A psychitrist is a good choice but family doctors treat this everday. Also finding a counselor or someone trained to help fight this along with medication is the best choice. I know what you are feeling and I am so sorry. 4 months ago I would never believe I would ever be able to smile and actually not fake it. Hope you get some help and start enjoying life again. If you need any more info or just to talk contact me at amyboan@bellsouth.net Take care!!! Thought that I needed to make clear depression can come on with out any reason Even with someone who seems to have everything. This is because of a chemical imbalance in the brain and the way you treat this is medication.