Depression-mental problem?!

Depression-mental problem?

I`ve been depress since highschool because the kids weren`t nice to me.I`m 22 and I have suicidal thoughts.Can I overlook my suicidal thoughts if I been having it for years and I haven`t tried to kill myself? I`m a christian so i`m afriad to go to hell.

I stay home alot ;I became anti-social because of my highschool .I don`t have any friends.I basically don`t have a life.I usually get pannic attacks when I have to go to school or when I have to go outside.I`m too scared to get a job because I don`t know how i`ll be treated.I`m angry all the time because of the bad things people did to me .I`m even mad at my parents.

I never saw a doctor about this.Could it be a Bi-polar disorder?

2 weeks ago
I check out the site and I was shook to see that I have the symptoms of GAD.They also said that it can be mistaken for things like somatization disorder and I would have to see a doc about this.I thought I was crazy when I experience those symptoms.

My mom does know that I have suicidal thoughts,but my dad isn`t in my life to know.All my mom said was''go to chruch,pray to God,you should know better,you will go to hell'' she also thinks I say it to hurt her.Last year she actually told me to'' kill yourself then''.My mom didn`t allow me to see a therapist when I was in highschool because she`s a christian.Up untill last year I tried to pray away my problem.It didn`t work so I decided to think that therapist aren`t bad.

You sound like you might be suffering from GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder). Look it up on WebMD and see if you have the symptoms. I was just diagnosed with this about 4 months ago. Agoraphobia (fear of leaving your home) comes along with it alot of times and so do panic attacks. You need therapy to find out what is causing it to begin with and how to learn to deal with that. I am taking medication right now as well. Please look it up and take the information to your parents and your doctor. This is no fun at all but there can be light at the end of the tunnel. WebMD also has an anxiety support group and it helps to read the posts from people like us that suffer and to know that you are not alone. Good luck, honey! I'm pulling for you.