Why do I wake up every day?!
Question:
Why do I wake up every day?
I go to bed at night and pray that I won't wake up, and then when I do I cry for a hour because I did wake up. I am so afraid of reaching out for help, that someone will lock me away somewhere. Why can't I get over this fear and reach out for help.
Answers:
You wake up every day because God awakens you via an internal chemical clock called "circadian rythyms". It's true! Look it up by typing circadian rythym" into Yahoo! answers. A number of links comes up; most good summaries.
You are depressed! There is a reason for your depression and you need to find it and do something about it. It is hard to do because a depression results in negative thinking (like not wanting to live another day) and negative thinking results in deeper depression. Sometimes it is necessary to ask for help if you can't break out of this cycle or your environment is bad. Mental health professionals are available and your family doctor can reccomend one.
Therapists are those mental health professionals who make their living helping people like you find the reasons for their depression and helping them overcome it. They will not lock you away because you are their "bread and butter"; they need you as much as you need them.
If you are a child talk to a parent or someone you can trust and GET HELP. If you are an adult then the thing to do is DO SOMETHING even if it is frightening at first.
Good luck, good health, peace and love!