How to I recconect with my sister after falling into the clutches of addiction, !

How to I recconect with my sister after falling into the clutches of addiction, as my parents have?

I've been doing drugs for almost a year now, and they've gotten me no where, I want to change, but I don't really know sometimes.
I honestly want to keep doing it, just maybe not hurt my family or sister.
Yesterday as I wrote in my other question I just posted, i did a gram of Cocaine in one line, which is very very unhealthy, and I could have died.
On top of that, my eyes were watering I was shaking and showing other signs. I decided I couldn't lie to my sister about it and told her I did a bump.

she was livid because I'm going away to rehab in a few days, depressing as it is.

I just miss when we used to connect, instead of her trying to always go to her friends houses and us never talking, I know she's upset and cares a lot, but I don't want her to worry so much about me, I do this because I like to escape, but i wish I could find another way then I've been doing over the yrs.

cutting, throwing up, not eating, burning, bruising myself, doing drugs. etc. I just need help?

the coke is making you over think your problems. its like this, a day has 24 hrs in it, your brain is processing thoughts at an accelerated rate therefore 24 hours becomes an eternity. You will reconnect, just not today or tomorrow or maybe 2 years from now. And your relationship will be different. Try to keep that in mind. You are still human and you have to deal with your problems just as everyone else does - one day at a time.