Whats wrong with me?!

Whats wrong with me?

I dont really know if theres somthing wrong?


everynight for the past year about i have constant nightmares. like 5-10 a night. i wake up sweating or breathing hard.i get about an hour of sleep every night. when i wake up i see things like hullusionations ( spelled wrong).like people, dying people, animals ect ect what can couse this?

another thing idk why i do this. i day dream all day about a diffrent life i make up. ive been doing it years and years and somtimes i get confused about the life i made up and the one im living. i dont know. i hope people dont think im a freak tho. is there like a name for that or is it normal?

a couple times a day i have like "mini-heart attacks" its hard for me to breath. and its like i can feel my skin ripping open. is this some kind of heart/stess/panic attack?

some small things

is there a good way to cope with stress/bordem. i cut when im bored or stressed. or rip hair out.

sorry it seems like a bunch of ranting.help plz!

When you dream about people dying it is your subconsience cutting of old relationships/experiences you must have made some big changes recently (When I moved I dreamed everyone I knew died a lot). You definatley are under a lot of stress and need to vent out your feelings instead of holding them inside. Have you considered doing something creative like art? If you were to paint or draw you can release a lot of built up negitive feelings. You should never judge yourself at all and never put yourself down that will just make everything worse. I think you are in a bad situation or with bad people who are not treating you right because you are dreaming of a better life, instead why not go get that life you want? Are you staying where you are to make someone else happy? Is it really worth sacrificing your own happiness?

I have spent too many years under the care of pyschiatrist and don't really recomend that (I just felt like there was something wrong with me which just made things worse). Find someone you can trust and talk out you problems with them, tell them exactly how you feel or write out how you feel, don't leave anything out. You can stop yourself from feeling the need to hurt yourself I stopped and you just have to start it is the hardest part and it will get easier, it will start to come natrualy later.

I suspect you are in an unhealthy situation and it sounds like you need to get away from the people who are hurting you. Don't worry so much focus on what you can do and make goals for yourself. You can e-mail me I could use some more details to better answer your question. For now remember you are in control of yourself and your life no one else has the right to make you hurt and you are more powerful than you think and you do have the power to take your life back to do whatever makes you happy. Ranting will help you heal you should do more ranting this was hardly anything.