As anyone ever experienced something like this, what did you do to get "nor!
Question:
As anyone ever experienced something like this, what did you do to get "normal" again?
i just cry all the time. it's taking over my life. i literally spend hours every day crying & just feeling completely overwhelmed. the only thing that helps me is cutting or smoking weed. i hate it. i hate it (the cutting that is). especially the scars when i have to wear a sweatshirt even tho its like 95 degrees out & i always feel dizzy from bleeding all the time i think. but it is seriously the only thing that relaxes me. i have given up trying to see a psychiatrist/ologist whatever. whenever i go its like i blank out n forget that anything is even wrong with me can't even explain it. i dunno why i'm writing this like there's just nothing i can do. i tried antidepressants didnt work for me. i dont think there was ever even a period of time when it wasnt like that so idk if there is even a way for me to be "normal" or if i would know what thats even like.
Answers:
You should keep a journal and write everything you were feeling, especially when you cut. Write down anything that comes to mind, the reason you wanted to do it. What you felt like when you did it, if you regreted it afterwards. And keep a journal of everything else in your life. Then make an appointment with a different pshyciatrist, bring the journal in and tell them that you have a tough time expressing yourself when you meet with a pshyciatrist so you've brought a journal in to help explain what your experiencing. Tell them the meds you've tried and explain if you took them as prescribed or not. And then allow them to try different medications till they find what works for you.
Then you need to get an appointment with a pshyco-therapist. (I see one) they deal with trama and things like what your going through. You may have to try a couple different ones before you find one your comfortable with, then stick with regular therapy. Between medication and therapy there is hope that you can recover from cutting yourself, and start to feel better.
Good luck