I couldn't really explain everything I wanted to but I just need feedback. or a !

I couldn't really explain everything I wanted to but I just need feedback. or a life. ha. help.?

It's like I went through depression last year and i quit taking medicine in January because I was feeling better. Since then I had a few days that I didn't feel 100% but for the most part was doing good. Now all of the sudden out of nowhere I am having the same sick, disgusting feelings I had before. It's like I forgot what they feel like until I'm experiencing them again. The thing is that I've been doing the same things since I stopped taking my medicine. I mean like nothing has happened that would make anything change. I don't understand. I'm so frustrated. I feel isolated. I feel like I'm the only one who can understand me but I don't even really. I definitely feel awkward around people- I don't really know what to say or if I just fake it I wonder how they're taking me. I don't want to be around people. It's like I read what I wrote and i can't really explain the way I feel. Like reading this I just sound ridiculous but it's affecting me everyday. I don't want to take medicine?!?!

3 weeks ago
Sorry I should have been more clear, I did slowly stop taking the medicine per my doctor: but I stopped because I was feeling better.

3 weeks ago
ok it still didn't come out right but what I meant to say is that I slowly stopped taking it because I was feeling better for probably 3-4 months.

wow sounds exactly how i feel. if you don't want to take medicine maybe you should try therapy.