Why cant i change my life?!

Why cant i change my life?

Today was my final straw. I have had 4 jobs in the last 12 months and today i got fired yet again. Not because i was a bad worker but because i had to many sick days. I was not even sick. so many mornings i just cant bring myself to get out of bed. I smoke i lie i steal i abuse my friends trust. I am the most horrible person ever. I have not had family support since i was 14 and have struggled through life ever since. I was evicted from my house because i couldnt afford the rent and now im staying with my best friend who means the world to me. I cant get a job i have no motivation and im over weight a smoker and a complete loser.i just want life to be happier. im tired of being depressed HELP ME !!!!!!!!!

3 weeks ago
i have tried patches and gum and hypnotherapy but i just fall back into my old patterns. i have read the bible and have a strong belief in god however i have started to doubt him recently

quit smoking.... quit lying...... quit stealing....... quit abusing your friends trust and become a normal person