Im such a failure and quitter,im ready to just die!!?!

Im such a failure and quitter,im ready to just die!!?

So many stuff has been going on,Im just ready to die right now because i just cant take it anymore with life and everything.First of all,my job fired me because my cell phone died and i was out of town,my phone doesnt roam anyway and there was no pay phone around and my bf's phone had no minutes and i had stayed there for the weekend knowing i had to work but i needed to get outta town.so now i got no job,interview tomorrow for a secretary job but i doubt im gonna get it because i got no secretary exp. yet im a good typer and i know about ms word and office.Then my boyfriend has a bad knee injury and its bad because now hes not gonna have a car for a looong time due to medical bills and i have no license or car and he has a license,just not a car so im screwed with seeing my only support system.then today is my 7th time failing the permit test,7 times!!!! im never gonna drive or do anything,i really need help and im just about to kill myself right now if i dont get some help here!

3 weeks ago
I just wanna be able to move out of this stupid town,get a new job at a new town and be with my boyfriend because hes the only one i got like really,we may not talk much but hes my only best friend.I wanna lose weight but i cant even do that because of all the stuff going on right now.i got my own apt. but i cant pay rent till i get a job and i just pay for eletric.im just so stressed please

3 weeks ago
i got my own apt. here in town but i gotta 1 year lease but i need to move out so i can move up to bartlesville to be with him.im barely at my apt cuz i got no cable or internet or a couch.

WOW! you have a lot going on. first, even though it seems soo bad keep your head up TRY... to have a positive thought or two, like it is a beautiful day, the blue sky is beautiful...etc.. then try & give thanx to 5 things a day, or start w/ just 1 such as..thank you for my health, thanx for the food on table, thanx for family...and last and most imp. why do u "love" your man sooo much if he does not talk to you??you are an adult i assume, if u want to move do it!! do it alone!! might be scary but it is well worth it!! i should know, i went thru somewhat similiar 15 yrs ago, since ive lived in 4 states & am now very independent, sober & happy!! still single but am soo happy w/life now!! ps i tried to kill myself numerous times when younger, NOT WORTH IT!! LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF!!!I DID!