Could you please read this and tell me what you think?!

Could you please read this and tell me what you think?

The rumbling noises in my tummy are telling me I should eat something but I don’t want to. I feel sick inside.
The dark circles underneath my eyes are telling me I should sleep but I can't seem to sleep when I do I seem to wake up just as tired.
My muscles are aching telling me to stop running stop excerising so much, I can’t seem to find another way to cope with my sadness.
The voices in my head are arguing interrupting my thoughts. Because of them I feel paranoid I don’t know who I am any more I don’t know who to listen to.
The quivering of my voice indicates I am not used to talking to others.
My heart and my soul are just begging to be held right now but no ones here to hold me.
So I have to go on alone.
In my desperation I do not know who I am? I feel shame and I feel guilt mixed with immense fear and sadness.
I know that when someone notices me when they talk to me. I don’t feel so sad anymore and suddenly life all seems worth while.
I wish I wasnt alone now.

Hi David,

It's ok. I think the biggest struggle to be met are those voices of judgment and guilt that live inside us.

I fought depression for years, went to counselors, and psychiatrists, took a pharmacy of antidepressants and anti anxiety pills, until one day I had to stop being the guinea pig because none of it was working.

At 24 I had to decide that there was nothing wrong with me, which took a couple of years to sink in.

Then what worked for me is that I had to start taking each emotion as it came and just sit with the thought without guilt, without judgment, and cry without punishment. With each moment of acceptance the next emotion was easier to sit through, and each day it got increasingly better.

I'm sure that you have a friend or a parent to confide in, if all else fails use a journal. I find that I can't get a thought out of my head if I just write it down, I can breath.

Good luck.