Has anyone realised that they're truly alone?!

Has anyone realised that they're truly alone?

Been a loner their whole life, sit alone in their room all the time. No friends or relationships with anyone. Constant sadness draining away at the soul. Never understanding what's so great about socialising. Only social contact they've had is 7 years of bullying
Yeah, that's about me right now.
I really am alone, hated and seen as weird by others and truly alone in this world. Nobody would notice if I'm gone.

Anyone else had that realisation about themselves?

well.. altho i personally do care a lot about socializing and keeping good friends, etc, i recently went thru something kinda traumatizing and felt SO dang alone when no one was THERE for me. =T.. not even my own boyfriend.

and i wrote a question saying "have u ever felt so alone, even with a boyfriend, friends, church group, and family around u?"

things are better now, but at that point i was just flat out Miserable.... one of the reasons because i try so hard to be there for other people...so when I needed it, i was let down.

what i want to say here, and hopefully NO offense to you whatsoever..is that if you do feel sad constantly, a lot of it has to do with feeling Lonely. so it's not that socializing is "not great"....it's more that u do Need friends and love, but don't have it around u right now. and i'm really sorry to hear that... i think i sort of know how it feels Emotionally, whereas u are feeling it Physically as well as Emotionally.

why do u feel that u are hated? and why do u think u are being bullied? first of all, those people are WRONG. they shouldn't be treating u that way, regardless of if u are a quiet, meek or shy type.

second of all, you also have to realize that people who are Perceived as "weak" tend to be bullied. and i'm not saying i'ts Your Fault, u are weak, that's why u get crapped on! not at all. but i am saying that since the world we live in can be hard like that, u will need to eventually adapt somehow, so that YOU can grow a thicker skin and improve YOUR life...regardless of the other mean people in ur life.

next, i would suggest trying to find Positive, Healthy, and GOOD people and things and surround yourself with that. cling on to anyone or anything Positive, Encouraging and Helpful, and ignore and distance urself from the Negatives.

in my own experience, i can say that stopped me from doing many things was my confidence level. a few years ago, finally after dating a horrendous guy (online mind u, cuz i hadn't met anyone normally since college!), i realized i need to make a Change. i need to work on myself, in order for Others to see the good things that i thought were inside. so i started w/ exercising, and working on myself Physically. the better i Looked, the better i Felt, and the more confident i was to be bolder. next, i worked on my Mind. i started attending a bible study group, and spoke up and asked questions and discussed, read a lot of news online, etc etc. the more i KNEW, i realized the more i could Discuss with even strangers~ and because i felt more Confident in my Looks, it was easier for me to talk and discuss with guys, girls, strangers, teachers, whoever. finally, i worked on my relationships w/ my friends and family. the more i spent time with them, and tried to be positive and open and have fun, the more chances i had to Open my personality up, and learn about myself.

and after that, i ended up meeting guys Normal ways, thru friends of friends, and then church.... and i am a much different person than i was a few years ago.. :)

as long as u continue to seek what is Good, Positive, Healthy, and Right, u will find an answer. good luck to you, and make an effort to change. not for others, but for yourself, to be happy and good and a positive influence. maybe u can help others like urself, who felt alone.