Best way to deal?!

Best way to deal?

I was rapped at 14. I had my daughter 15 as result of that rape. I tried to forget about it the whole time i was pregnant and pretty much did. Then when I had her I pretended everything was normal and pretended nothing happened. Now my daughter is 3 1/2 and my lil sister who is also 3 asked me y veronica didn't have a daddy like her right in front of my daughter. I was at a loss for words, my daughter could tell something was wrong n came up n said i don't need a daddy your the best mommy in the world. SO it seemed solved right shes not asking me. But I'm so worried i haven't protected her from it. and lately i haven't been the same. I always sad and thinking n hate it when its quite cuz I'm left with just my thoughts. I feel like I'm not as good of a mom ne more. am i suffering depression from ignoring what happened for so long? What could I do to feel like myslef again?

I think you've been sorta running from the fact that you were through a traumatic experience. Your daughter was right when she told you she doesn't need a dad when she's got a great mom. But it's your responsibility as her mom to take care of yourself & to deal with these very difficult issues & emotions you are facing within yourself before you can face the questions your daughter will no doubt one day ask. You have to "pull yourself together" so to speak and really just find away to face your experience. Rape leaves very deep scars and the only way to truly heal is to confront those feelings head on and work through them.

Seek counseling and work through your own feelings about this as it's definately something that needs to be dealt with & needs some sort of closure. For your sake & and your daughters.

Best wishes from the bottom of my heart & Good Luck to both of you.