I don't know how to deal with my frustration, feelings, depression?!

I don't know how to deal with my frustration, feelings, depression?

I let things that bother me build up inside in till I explode. By explode I mean screaming or crying. Sometimes I get really sick and cant breath. I know its anxiety but it happens when everythings ok sometimes. Last time my stomach started hurting I felt like I was going to vomit, I got dizzy, started sweating, turned geenish and then l had major problems breathing. I feel like I'm in a daze sometimes I just blank out and ignore whats going on that bothers me and when I do try to stand up for myself or the way I feel I try not to make the person mad but the closest people to me (my mom, sister, and boyfriend) get very angry with me over very small things. Sometimes I'm in a bad mood for days. I feel hopeless, lost, and like a failure. I'm taking a semester off from school and I've been in between jobs alot lately. My mom treats me like a kid but expects me to behave like an adult. I don't know how to deal with my frustrtation and no talking does me no good with the people closest to m

I was like that.

Is it possible that you're not allowed to express your feelings in your home?

Unfortunately, you might have a hard time getting over this unless you can open up the lines of communication in your home.

For me, keeping a diary helped some. Later, I could go back and read about how I felt and why and it helped me to realize why I had a reason to be upset.