Why AM I SO CURSED!?!

Why AM I SO CURSED!?

I'm 21 on saturday and I feel like my life has been one big curse! everything I seem to do in my life falls back in my face.. I'm never lucky with anything.. everyone seems to hate me for just being myself.. my family don't care about me.. and my wellbeing.. I have a long term boyfriend but I just found out he cheated on me last year but I'm too scared of telling him because I need somewhere to live!
so I'm holding it on my consience..
I don't get birthday cards from my dad.. because he doesnt care.
I always try to think positive about things but they never work out I can't ever plan anything or go out with friends because I just get let down..
all I can ever think is negative because I've only ever had a negative life..
I'm only ever nice to people and I never let people know how I'm feeling because they dont want to know..
I'm meant to be having a 21st party on saturday but I just found out its going to rain and its rained on my birthday for the last 3yrs! I hate my life!

The last thing you need is for me to tell you to stop being a victim so I will say this. You are very young and you have your life ahead of you. I am sure you not imagining all the bad that is going on in your life, however, you should not let it define you or your life. Use this time as a life experience. Try to allow it to make you stronger. You are going through an extremely rough patch and who knows how long it will last but you are able if you are willing to take controll of your life. You need to talk to your boyfriend and decide if you two want to continue with this relationship or not. If not you should consider a part time job and looking for a room mate. This will get you out of a bad situation and you might make a new friend. There a sites such as backpage.com and craigs list where you place a roomate wanted ad for free. As for your birthday have you considered having your party indoors or maybe since your 21 gather your closest friends, choose a designated driver and go clubbing. Guys love buying 21 year old birthday girls drinks. As for your father don't take his short comings personally. Learn to love yourself and your life. Give your father a chance to be apart of that and if he doesen't come correct it is his loss. It won't be easy but can make a change. Take advantage of your youth. You are already ahead the game, you know what it is in your life that makes you feel this way. If you had a bad cough you would take a cough drop or see a doctor to get rid of it, well this is your life drop the bad and you are the remedy.