Can someone please tell me what to do?!

Can someone please tell me what to do?

I have wasted 6 months of my life being a selfish depressed idiot, i shoul dhave realised when i returned from overseas that i coudlnt settle back at home and either needed to go back or move to a nother city, now i have been weighing up the two options for 6 months and in the meantime compltetly lost myself and sabotaged my life, and am still at home, now that i have been this horrible person for so long i cant see anything making me better, anything i do now i'm doing for the sake of it, not becuase its something i really want to do, i dont want to stay where i am, i dont want to go back overseas, i dont want to move up north, as none of these things are going to make me back to the girl i used to be, how does this happen to people. i was always so carefree and fun with my head screwed on, and clear goals, now i am absolutely lost and unhappy and there is nothing i can do to fix it......should i just go back overseas and hope this helps me or do i stay ?where i am or what? I

It sounds like you are lonesome and need to find a love interest. If you are bored, try something new, working on writing a novel for example. But to me it just sounds like you are lonesome.